it’s great to be alive
this topic may be way out of its time, but i wanna post it anyway.
ever watched the j-dorama "ichi ritoru no namida" or "one liter of tears"? well, if you have you’ll get a pretty good idea why i’m writing this.
we ignorant humans sometimes forget to be thankful. that we are alive. that we are healthy. that we are able to smile, able to run around freely, able to do a million other simple things that we don’t ever notice. we simply forget because we have near-perfect bodies. and we spend countless hours trying to make it perfect. we justify hundreds of dollars for cosmetics and hairdo or special privileges at the local gym. but we almost never take time to enjoy and be thankful of the complex coordination between our limbs when we walk. or how we can eat ice cream upside down and let our throat do the pushing.
a few days ago i posted something about me having this tonsil inflammation. well, when i look back now, this is nothing compared to the spinocerebellar degeneration that aya had to go through at such a young age. and now i’m most thankful that i’m still able to feel pain, as if someone had stuck a big needle through my throat.
i’m not saying i’m better or more thankful than the rest of the human population. this is just what i’ve been thinking while listening to aya’s soundtrack. she isn’t that attractive, she had her share of breakdowns and sometimes takes the wrong turn down the road; she’s only human. but with the spirit and the noble heart she has, she more than deserves a praise.
JAF day 2
the japan art festival held at Kiko’s Restaurant starting two days ago is quite a gathering. i’m not talking in terms of the number of people involved, because any indonesian or western music concert would easily outnumber the audience. it was quite show in itself.
netsubô was scheduled to perform as the last band for the second day (last night). but then as it turns out, there are actually two more bands who performed after us.
okay, first the performance. after all the sessions we had at the studios, it finally paid off. we performed well, for a band who had just had two new players and a whole lot of adjustments. especially since this is the first time (as i remembered) we performed on stage with a keyboard player. despite all the negative thinking i had in my mind, which i finally managed to throw away at the last moment, the two newbies performed quite well. they were all serious in the preps and looked a bit tense on stage. but that was normal. they’ll get the hang of it soon or later.
well, it wasn’t exactly a perfect performance, but i gotta hand it to them, because i felt like it was a blast anyway. the whole band performed with its distinct coreography: virtually standstill. this was our trademark from the beginning, since we all didn’t want to sacrifice our musicality to coreography — or so we said. we’re just not good at it, hahaha…
about the other bands, they also performed quite well, getting the crowd to shake their butts as soon as a song starts. i feel kinda sorry though for the two bands that performed after netsubô. right after we got off the stage, the mass of audience suddenly shrunk to just a little over 30 people. the court was nearly empty. li’l sis says it’s the EO’s fault for letting them perform after us. without any intent to boast, the bands that perform early in the rundown, including us, were quite well known to the j-music community, and we had no problem massing the audience. but the two last bands — forget me not and panic beat — were relatively newbies with virtually no mass at all. but the bands performed quite well, and — despite my annoying tonsil problem — i went to mosh. not that i know the songs (except the AKG played by panic beat), but i just wanted to show support them.
overall it’s a great day — some minor flicks here and there — and i think i wanna do it again tonight.
tonsil inflammation
i had tonsil inflammation for almost two weeks now, and it hurts like hell. i don’t get to eat good food anymore. i have to eat softer stuff, and soft isn’t always good. some of the food is actually great, but anyone who has ever been ill as i am should know that i just couldn’t enjoy any meal.
i had gone to see two doctors, one is a specialist. here’s the drug-o-graphy:
first encounter:
amoxicillin 500mg, cataflam 25mg, bexicom (multivitamin)
second encounter:
amoxicillin 500mg, cataflam 25mg, cotrimoxazole 480mg
third encounter:
banoxillin 500mg, cataflam 25mg, cotrimoxazole 480mg
fourth encounter:
ciprofloxacin 500mg, nufadex m 0,5mg, pondex forte 500mg, bexicom (multivitamin)
first opinion: surgically remove the tonsils
second opinion: definitely get those screwed up tonsils out of me
the doctors evidently tried to throw everything at their disposal, antibiotics and stuff, to thwart the attack on my tonsils. but the army of germs — or whatever the hell it is that’s messing around in the back of my mouth — never seemed to even think about retreating.
the problem now is not about the surgery itself, it is a minor one and i wouldn’t bother to think about the pain, bla bla bla… it’s the recovery. i have to perform on stage on saturday. then i have to hold a seminar next wednesday and i have class later in the afternoon. then on friday i have lab work. one of the doctors said the recovery process really depends on my body’s defenses, but an educated guess puts it in the range between one to two weeks.
sh*t!!
so i called in for an appointment with the specialist today to discuss how best to address the situation. i definitely can’t afford to cancel the seminar or bail out of my band, but the lab work i can manage next year — if i am not getting too old for school, that is.
let’s just see how it goes…
